It's been less than a week since we found out. I'm really still in shock. Last Wednesday I started feeling a little sick so on my lunch break I ran to the store and grabbed a three pack of pregnancy tests. I know you should take them in the morning, but I was so anxious (I just really wanted to be pregnant) that I took one then. As soon as I got back to my office I ran into the bathroom, ripped open the box and tested. When the line came up it was so faint I thought that maybe my eyes were playing tricks on me. After all I did want to be pregnant so bad! Tentatively I called my husband to tell him we might be pregnant. He was very excited and I was thrilled at his response.
Five tests and five days later I can say that I am definitely pregnant!
I haven't really felt pregnant yet. So far I've had a backache that has been with me for a week and a half. Nothing that warrants pain medication. Its more like an ache that is right on the edge of being troublesome. I also have cramping and I am SO tired. I can't tell if that is a symptom or because I haven't been able to sleep since I first found out. Either way I found it hard to function at work today.
Matthew and I have decided to wait to tell anyone until after we reach the 12 week mark. I am terrified of something bad happening. If anything were to happen I don't think I'd be able to handle reliving that pain with everyone I know. For now just my mom knows. I couldn't keep it from her, but I've sworn her to secrecy!
For now we are just enjoying our time together, before the secret is out, and our lives get crazy.
We have our first midwife appointment this coming Friday. We will get to ask all of our silly questions, as first time parents, and find out some information on our little peanut! Maybe we'll even get a due date. All the due date calculators that I've used say somewhere around April 3-10.