Will I Ever Feel Pregnant?!

It feels like I've been pregnant forever, but really I've only known for two weeks. I'm not sure how I am going to last for 8 1/2 more months! I am such an impatient person. Normally when I decide I want something I wanted it yesterday. I've always known I wanted to be a mom, so this waiting is hard.

They say at 6 weeks is when you start to really feel pregnant, but I'm still not feeling it. Or I guess what I should say is, I'm not feeling what I think I should be feeling. I don't have that run to the bathroom, can't stomach food, nauseous feeling. What I do have is a queasiness that comes and goes throughout the day. I also don't have that breast tenderness that everyone says is horrible. I just have some slight discomfort when there is pressure put on my boobs. I do find myself having to use the bathroom a lot, but I've been SO thirsty lately that I've been drinking double what I normally do. And I drink a LOT of water to begin with. So I don't really count that as a real symptom.

I know a lack of pregnancy symptoms doesn't mean that anything is wrong, but I can't help but let my mind wander there occasionally. I don't think I can explain how badly I've wanted and waited for this. And thinking that it could be over before it starts is heartbreaking. I am a worrier. I worry mostly about things out of my control (because if they were in my control then I'd have control over the outcome. HA!). I know I will worry this entire pregnancy, but I do trust that God will do what he thinks is best for our family. He will not throw anything at us that we cannot handle. I am just taking this pregnancy day by day right now.

Today is actually a big day for us. Today is the day we tell our favorite people, Sean and Ashli, that we are expecting. Sean is Matthew's best friend and Ashli is his wife. They also have an adorable 2 1/2 year old daughter, Fiona, that I am in LOVE with. I love spending time with them and I am so excited to have someone in Denver that I can talk to about pregnancy, since she has gone through it already. I also really wanted Matthew to be able to have someone to talk to. Since we are trying to keep it a secret from most people I thought it was important for Matthew to be able to talk to someone. I told my mom, so its only fair.